Sometimes, I will tell you I have fun at work and I'm not lieing. My friend from Chicago was working Tuesday and had about 2 hours here...which fell perfectly with my 2 hour break! So we had lunch and just hung out chatting. Those days are the best days of work...when I can just give a friend a hug! And it's on the those days that my smile is truly genuine!

Sunday night, I had a long conversation with a good friend. This conversation was one of those that I have come to cherish. Talking about friendships and relationships and how important they are. It's so nice to know that there are still people out there looking out for your best interests. Trying to help me realize my full potential and help me become everything I was intended for.

Something very important is coming up soon. Something I've wanted for a very long time...and almost had. It makes me nervous, scared, excited, smiley. I've learned quite a few lessons along the way and have become a better person for it. Thanks to those of you who have helped me realize some of those important lessons!

I always say that I'm going to make significant lifestyle changes...and I usually do...for a couple of weeks. And I'm getting tired of always falling off the bandwagon. I want to lose weight (about 25 lbs) but it seems that every time I commit myself to it, I lose 6-7 lbs and then fall off the bandwagon. I'm getting tired of selling myself short. I can do it because I have done it before. But I've always had some type of motivation to do it. First it was going to Europe for a semester (lost nearly 15 lbs that summer). My last semester in college, I gained all that back plus some. The summer after graduating, I went to work for the airlines and the only uniform piece I had didn't fit so I lost about 10 lbs. This summer, I gained 5 during InFlight training and then when I was kicked out, I gained another 8 lbs. This past month (due to mourning and stress), I have lost 6 lbs. Plus, I stopped drinking sodas (yes, I finally quit drinking that stuff). However, this past week has been hard on my emotions and I've been turning to food for my comfort (and I've been really bored). I don't want to turn to food for comfort. I need a support system (not just my parents even though they are great). I think I hide under this weight. What am I hiding from? constant rejection, not feeling good enough, loneliness 

People who don't take their jobs seriously kind of bug me. At least care that you have a job and even after the countless times you screw up, be thankful management still keeps you around. And at least care a little bit about what you do. Maybe I take my job too seriously but I think I just want to prove that I am a good employee and a valuable asset to the company (especially after what someone said to me this summer). 

So today I did a little what I like to call crew stalking. This takes some time, effort and plain boredom but I'm glad I did it today. I found out that 3 of my InFlight training friends were going to be flying through today...one of which I haven't seen since that day in June. I was so happy to see and chat with Miss Stacy Raffo!!! She was very encouraging about the whole situation that happened. I also got to see my InFlight roomie and it is always a pleasure to see her since we got along so well in training. I also get to see my good friend Christina later on this evening! So overall, getting up before the crack of dawn was worth my sleepiness today.

I just recently bought a brand new Nikon D300S along with an 18-200 mm VR lens. And I had the pleasure of shooting the Brock family last weekend in Dallas. Such a cute little family. And let me just say that you can definitely tell that I'm using a different camera.

Photography is my passion!!! I love to hang out with people and chat while shooting them. I'm looking for business! And the only way to get business is through word of mouth. If you like my photography, would you please tell your friends and family about me?? I will travel to wherever, whenever! I'm currently looking for a couple who is head-over-heels in love with one another and who will let me photograph them! If you know of anyone, please let me know!

Never did I think I would have to deal with the kind of emotions I've been dealing with the last few days and will continue to feel. Never did I think that I would have to listen to someone tell me that one of our friends was killed so tragically. And I would never wish for someone to see the horrible picture on the internet that you would never even wish your worst enemy to see. 

Yesterday, an email was sent out to all employees of my company saying that they were taking away ALL HMO's and PPO's and people would be enrolled in a HSA (health savings account). While this is good for people like me who only go to the doctor 2-3 times a year max, it is not good for people with pre-existing conditions. I have been really worried about one of my friends who has a severe allergy to all things wheat and dairy. If she eats any of those or something with a by-product of wheat or dairy, she has to go to the hospital to get her stomach pumped or she could die. She could go medically bankrupt because of what the company has decided will benefit the employees. I am saddened or maybe even angry at my company for choosing this route for the "good" of the company. People with pre-existing conditions will no longer be able to afford to work for my company because we already don't make enough money and what benefits or incentives we did have, well they've all been taken away in the last 6 months. I was going to sign up for medical insurance when open enrollment occurred but not anymore, as chosen for me by the company. I guess I'm going to have to get a job at Starbucks working 20 hours a week so that I can have full medical insurance and not have to worry if I need to go to the hospital.